As i’ve been saying before, i’m falling for someone, and the feeling that’s coming with it, i have to say it’s amazing, i’ve never ever felt this way before, and it’s amazing, but it’s not possible date him, at least for me, i think we get on well and we have a lot in common, we can talk, we laugh about things, he’s gorgeous, gentleman, funny, amazing, and beauty, he is everything all i ever wanted in someone, it’s like he came along when i didn’t expected it, but now, i want it way too much, but also i want it even more because i can’t have it.
if i see him in the club i think im going to give him signs, because i can’t go that far, for now at least.
If he knew how i feel about him, that would be good, but he didn’t knowing it, makes it frustrating, but eventually maybe he’ll figure out, i told him that i was gay and the relation didn’t even changed a bit, i guess the relation just improved a little, we talked all the way in the bus, and i was happy, cause we didn’t talk in the bus before, so, it’s a start.
“the monster’s wake and you can’t do nothing about it”
it’s been like a year since i’ve been with a person, i mean, i took off a year just to be with my self, just a year to think of me, and that’s the best decition i’ve ever made in a long time.
i didn’t feel the need to be with someone, cause i always feel like no one is good enough, but since a month or so, i’ve been feeling diferenty, like, i got nervous when we say hi to me, or hold me, or talks to me, i got shake in my hands, and i laugh about every damn thing.
i don’t think he even figure i’m into him, and if he already knows it, he doesn’t even care.
and i don’t know how to feel, i don’t feel happy, i don’t feel sad, but i always feel the need to tell him how damn i’m falling for him, it’s something i couldn’t stop, but here i am, talking about him, wishing that he might want me just a little.
i don’t have a lot to talk about, at least not as much as i would like to .. you know, it’s been a really long time since i’ve fall for someone, i didn’t expected to fall for anyone really, but the fact is i do, i’ve fall for someone, who’s in my class, wich it’s not a friend, it’s my teacher, he’s so gorgeous, he’s smart, kind, funny, idk, i just like him so much, and i don’t know what to do, he was at this party this other night, and i’ve talked to him, wich i was really exited, i mean, he came and say hi, and all i think about now is how pretty he was that night.
i don’t fucking know when i became such an ass, i mean, i get i could fall into somebody, someone who i don’t know, but, is it normal that i like my university teacher, i mean, he’s like 25, he’s gorgeous as shit.
Fuck, i’m such a weirdo.